I just have a lot of feelings.  Two posts this evening.

I made it a point this weekend to spend a lot of time reflecting on the person that I am, the person I was before all the bad stuff happened, and what I truly want out of life.  Do I want to continue pursuing my ‘submissive journey’ or would I rather say fuck it?

I know, considering the train wreck that was my most recent relationship, that I can’t do vanilla.  I don’t want a relationship, but I also don’t want just a play partner because, at this point, I wouldn’t trust myself to stay unattached.  Emotionally fragile, to say the least.

I don’t like admitting this, but I am still pathetically attached to Jason.  He fucked me up.  I finally confessed this to my sister, who knows a bit about the nature of our relationship.

What would you do if he called or even showed up?  Could you step away, Stella?


My mind conveniently forgets all the heartbreak…




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