You know what’s so frustrating? Talking to someone for MONTHS and then they constantly (and randomly!) disappear. I used to make up excuses for him – busy, busy, busy. But… I’m busy, too.
This is why I am so frustrated. I don’t know how people do this. I have PTSD from my first Dom and serious trust issues from my second. (Granted it isn’t just Doms that have screwed me up. My very first boyfriend raped me. The most recent vanilla ex? He threatened to kill me.) The messages that fill my Fetlife and Collarspace inboxes are 99% abusive, sexist filth. When I do find someone worth talking to, they disappear in days or they’re too far away to take seriously.
Everyone keeps saying, “be patient, the right one will come.” Are you sure? My patience is wearing thin.