A few days ago, I created a profile on a site that allows people (most likely men) to ‘sext’ me for a small fee. See those posts, here and here. I haven’t done anything with it yet but I am semi-anxious to start.
What’s the hold up!?
I CANNOT for the life of me shake these random insecurities that seemed to pop up over night.
A little bit about me – I fall into this awkward category between thin and BBW. Too big for the people who are into skinny girls and not big enough for the people who are into BBWs. I don’t know, I don’t understand it but it is my experience thus far.
I want to put a photo on my profile. Nothing overly revealing, but enough to show an accurate depiction of my body. I do have issues with photos, a story for another blog post, but I thought maybe because this was anonymous it would be easier. NOPE. It isn’t. I hate everything.
I have some sort of idea in my head that my body is just weird. Part of me hopes that this adventure into a little piece of the sex industry will help me feel more comfortable with myself.
So, tonight’s goal is to take ONE photo of myself in some sort of lingerie. Just one. I can do this… right?