All I want to do right now is curl up in a ball under my covers and cry. I don’t really want to wake up dehydrated with puffy eyes though so I’m trying to keep it together.
As per usual, nothing is actually wrong but my anxiety is high today and I feel so alone.
I’m watching Titanic to distract myself but I’ll have to stop soon. Once the ship starts sinking, I basically just cry through the rest of the movie. No puffy eyes…
I still need to continue the 30 days of kink posts I have been doing but every time I look at a prompt my mind just freezes.
I’m at a loss. I don’t know how to make myself better. Counseling isn’t anywhere close to being in the financial cards… and there just aren’t other options.