I think I mentioned in one of my last posts that I was going to write about my first experience with a vibrator… and I decided I want to keep that moment between myself and B. That doesn’t mean future experiences aren’t up for discussion in other posts. 😉
I have so many feelings I can hardly keep them inside. I always feel like bursting into a bunch of starry-eyed little pieces. It is constantly a shock to me that there are not little pink hearts radiating like steam from my ears. I am such a smitten little creature, and I can’t get enough.
Unfortunately, I have been sick this week. An infection in my ear (NOT an ear infection) has knocked the energy out of me. Luckily, the antibiotics have helped and I am almost back at 100%. I’m just thankful I did not have to go to the hospital or get IV drugs again. B has been so patient with me, taking care of me as best as he can even though he is not physically with me.
These are the times when I know he truly deserves my submission (and trust) and the moments when I want to give him all the little pieces that no one else has ever earned. I know he cares about me… and I know he won’t give up on me when times are less than perfect.
It has been tough though, especially as I continue to get better. I am beginning to get restless – I want to play with my Wolf… my sex toy collection has blossomed (considering it was at a grand total of ZERO) since we met and for the last week it has been untouched. I’m not complaining, I was truly in no shape to be playing this last week, but now that I’m getting better my inner slut is coming out again.
As an aside, you may start seeing me refer to B as my Wolf in future posts, my Wolf and His bunny.