Hey there, friends!
I wanted to take a minute to give you a few updates. Firstly, I have published a second story under the pen name Stormy Foxx, which you can find on Amazon – Taken By the Executives. Involves group sex in an office setting, if that’s your thing.
Read for free with Kindle Unlimited, otherwise, it’s only 99 cents to download.
Secondly, I have decided to start a new website/blog, StormyFoxx.com where I can market my books, write more stories, and blog about any kink or sex related topic that crosses my mind.
I am not certain whether I will continue to write here or not, though I will be around to read other people’s posts as I do enjoy them very much!
I haven’t blogged in awhile. For a few reasons. First, I haven’t had a ton to write about. Second, I have been focusing on my writing. I have been talking about publishing erotica for a LONG time and I finally did it (check it out here.)
I think I’m having a ‘quarter-life’ crisis. Yeah, it’s a thing! Google it! I feel so uncertain about almost everything in my life. My job? Hate it. Where I live? Over it. Right now, I have B and I have my writing… and that is all that makes me happy. Everything else seems like an annoying distraction.
B is always so supportive. It was Him who pushed me to finish my first story and publish it. Up until now, I have only written bits and pieces. He read it and helped me edit it, letting me know where pieces didn’t flow or where elaboration would help. I love that He doesn’t judge me.
I have no idea what I would do without him. Even though we are far apart right now, He still makes sure I’m taking care of myself – taking my anxiety meds and such. He lets me vent and knows how to get me to relax… on the flip-side, he knows how to make me wet too. My Wolf certainly is magical. 😉
He had been stalking me for awhile and you know, maybe I shouldn’t have been walking around by myself at 2 AM in such a dark and deserted area but.. hindsight and all that…
He took me down like a predator who had been waiting for days for prey to stray across his path. I struggled hard and tried to scream but he had a gag in my mouth before anything but a squeak came out. Being no match for his strength, he dragged me off the dirt path and into the woods.
I continued my struggle as he bound my hands together and then to a tree branch, but the struggle was weakening as my body betrayed me. He moved behind me, pulling me against him.. his hard cock pressing into my back.
“Look at you, slut,” he growled in my ear, pressing his body harder against mine, one hand pressed to my neck, the other teasing my clit. “Tied to a tree, dripping wet… desperate to be fucked.”
To be continued… maybe. 😉
Happy Easter friends! (Or, Happy Sunday if you do not celebrate!)
Today I’ve been reflecting on the time that has passed since I met B and He changed my world in the best way possible.
For the first time (in a LONG time) I have stopped questioning my submission. I used to struggle against it, and you might see that if you read old posts. Many times I questioned whether this lifestyle was for me, even in the midst of relationships. That thought doesn’t cross my mind with B, I know this is right.
He has never tried to force my submission to Him, He let me give it to Him. He let me surrender at my own pace, so instead of pushing against Him… I gave Him everything I’ve wanted to give for so long. Every single day I choose to submit and that’s the best part. It was an easy decision.
Why? He makes me laugh A LOT, communicates freely… not once has He ever made me feel like He is hiding anything. In return, I make myself transparent to Him. He understands my anxiety and doesn’t make me feel terrible for having emotions. He challenges me intellectually and supports my goals. Every other Dom that has ever crossed my life pales in comparison.
I know that I have been gushing about Him in all my posts lately, but I can’t help it! This is the first time I have ever felt so optimistic and excited about anything, our journey together.
Long distance is difficult… and sometimes (I mean, always) requires a little creativity. So this morning I expressed a wish that B could join me in the shower… and He found a way to make it happen. Then I found myself in the shower with my vibrator and B on speaker phone just outside the curtain.
It was fun talking with Him while I washed my hair and then, after a quick interruption by a rogue smoke alarm, the fun started. So, I closed my eyes and listened to His words and imagined His hands all over me and that my vibrator was Him sliding in and out. I just can’t get enough, even over the phone he makes me cum so hard.
I have never met a Dom like B before – he is every single thing I have been looking for, for soooo long. He is also the first Dom I have EVER wanted to give myself to completely. In the past, I have held pieces of me back… but B gets everything. He deserves everything and every day he proves that more and more.
My sister visited this weekend. We have a pretty close relationship, but we are about as opposite as two sisters can be. So, as much as I enjoyed seeing her for the past few days… I am ready to be alone again. We’ll see each other again in a few months and then I will visit her sometime in the summer as I usually do. I told her a little bit about B (not the details). She always seems so wary when I start talking about men. (It was more gushing about Him than it was talking though… you know, starry eyed and all). But, I don’t think she needs to worry this time, He won’t break me… and she won’t have to pick up the pieces.
I missed my Wolf though, even if I did get to text Him throughout the day and talk to Him each night before before bed. Honestly, I’m not sure I could fall asleep without hearing His voice first… lately He has been working on some relaxation techniques with me (think hypnosis!) and it is starting to work SO well. Not to mention all the other doors to exploration this could open. Of course it helps that I have given Him my submission and my mind is always open to His suggestions. I trust Him completely.
I have been feeling so peaceful lately – perhaps because I have finally found exactly what I want/need.
I think I mentioned in one of my last posts that I was going to write about my first experience with a vibrator… and I decided I want to keep that moment between myself and B. That doesn’t mean future experiences aren’t up for discussion in other posts. 😉
I have so many feelings I can hardly keep them inside. I always feel like bursting into a bunch of starry-eyed little pieces. It is constantly a shock to me that there are not little pink hearts radiating like steam from my ears. I am such a smitten little creature, and I can’t get enough.
Unfortunately, I have been sick this week. An infection in my ear (NOT an ear infection) has knocked the energy out of me. Luckily, the antibiotics have helped and I am almost back at 100%. I’m just thankful I did not have to go to the hospital or get IV drugs again. B has been so patient with me, taking care of me as best as he can even though he is not physically with me.
These are the times when I know he truly deserves my submission (and trust) and the moments when I want to give him all the little pieces that no one else has ever earned. I know he cares about me… and I know he won’t give up on me when times are less than perfect.
It has been tough though, especially as I continue to get better. I am beginning to get restless – I want to play with my Wolf… my sex toy collection has blossomed (considering it was at a grand total of ZERO) since we met and for the last week it has been untouched. I’m not complaining, I was truly in no shape to be playing this last week, but now that I’m getting better my inner slut is coming out again.
As an aside, you may start seeing me refer to B as my Wolf in future posts, my Wolf and His bunny.